#lovethoughts@1am

I had a deep realization at 1 a.m. this morning while desperately trying to sleep... and I sent this message to my usual GM (group message group):

"I was staring at the heart pierced by an arrow emoji/emoticon in my phone, and near it is the heart that's broken in the middle... and I got into a reflection mode (hahaha) and realized the connection between the two!!!

What I think about it is... Maybe people inlove are portrayed with a heart struck by an arrow because just like any other thing pierced in your heart, it leaves cracks, holes, bruises. And just like being inlove, you have to expect that along with the love, the possibility of pain goes along with it... And unfortunately, sometimes, too much love and too deep a piercing of the arrow, will break your heart in two."

#lovethoughts@1am

Random Art by Faye

The past few days I've been so excited to try out and borrow a drawing tablet that my sister's classmate lent to Ken (my sister's close friend who's been living with us in our apartment). I've been waiting to get my hands on the gadget and draw and see what it's capable of. Good thing Ken was using it last night to make her project, so nakisingit lang ako while she was resting and reading a book.

All I can say is... it's really awesome!!! Pasensyahan ang newbie. It's cool to actually see what you draw translate itself to the computer. 

Here is my cartoon self saying hello...

 My name hehehe

 And I wrote YAY because I want to have that attitude every single day because God has given us all the reasons to celebrate.

Okay, so that's just it. A glimpse of my artistic side. Hahaha. Artistic2x rin ako paminsan-minsan. :)

XOXO,

T.M.I. on that Time of the Month

WARNING: THIS POST MAY BE TOO T.M.I FOR YOU

Wearing formal wear today because I was supposed to have passport-sized pictures taken for PRC requirements. Unfortunately, I had the dreaded period today which sucked cause I always have BAD dysmenorrhea + BAD BAD mood swings. Hahahahaha! It was very unexpected because I have very irregular cycles and I usually skip 2 months on the average (Have to get myself checked soon).  I was crouched on the seats and lying down awhile ago so you can imagine how torturous that was to me. To make the long story short, I never really got to have pictures taken today... Sigh.

I'm smiling in the photo and feeling pretty but I'm really just sitting here in the office, seething like a dragon at my cramped and painful abdomen. Guess I have to skip classes tonight. Bummer.

Beyond the Doubt

Luke 7:18-28 was set prior to John the Baptist's execution. Here we find John calling two of his disciples to go to Jesus and ask Him: "Art Thou that should come? Or we look for another?" In other words, their question was, "Are you truly the Messiah?" It's quite shocking to me to read this story because, first,  John the Baptist (according to Sunday School stories and messages) was always portrayed as a courageous, determined messenger who was prophesied to prepare the way of the Lord. Second, I never heard about him doubting and desperately trying to seek assurance that Jesus is truly the Savior.

Since it was so unexpected, the thought of it struck me so hard. Isaiah 40:3 (KJV) proclaims: "The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make straight in the desert a highway for our God.". In relation to that, Malachi 3:1 (KJV) states that "Behold, I will send my messenger, and he shall prepare the way before me: and the Lord, whom ye seek, shall suddenly come to his temple, even the messenger of the covenant, whom ye delight in: behold, he shall come, saith the Lord of hosts." He was a man who was DEEMED to specifically set the stage for Christ's ministry on earth. He was written about long before he was ever born to do such an important work. Considering all these special things about this man, we most probably (I'm sure you do) regard him as strong and unmovable in his faith and belief. That's the thing about reading about a "character" in the Bible I guess, we tend to attribute such great traits (sometimes they seem to not be real people) and forget that, in fact, they are just humans -- that were GREATLY used by God. Samson, for example, was a man of literal strength; Esther, a woman of true beauty; Mary, a willing damsel to be used as an instrument for God's greater plan... all of them, were just like you and me. People. They could feel pain and heartache. They could feel happiness. They get hungry. They get jealous, They get sleepy. They feel love. But most of all, people feel fear -- fear that "what if what we've believed in is not true?" That's why we have doubts... and John the Baptist had that tinge of doubt a short while before he was to die.